Stomach hurts and feeling really hot. I hope its not another miserable night. Ive been feeling this way since .. For awhile now. Anytime it gets close to sleeping. I hate it!! Mom gets mad I’m up late but I can’t sleep!! I’m just not sleepy and it gets boring late by myself lol. Let’s see if she still takes my phone at night like she said she would. Maybe she will forget. Ah well.. Have my ipod at least. Oh might be moving to Mississippi for the next two months this weekend. We will find out tomorrow :( we will be there with saeed.. But it sucks because.. I won’t be in Texas :( we will come back but still :( ah well. If it helps my mom. I’ll be alone .. I dont feel alone here for some reason. Argh! For my mom.. For her…
thank god for friends!
15 days… :(
my phone keeps lighting up randomly. Its.. Creepy!!
i like the chase.
have to do it again….. :(
I’m scared! :(
blank
head heavy
eyes red and burning from tears
aches .. In heart, head, leg.
Guilt piled on chest. Nothing I can say will ever take this way. I will live with it.. Breath it… Choke on it. How could I? Betray..
Lower myself..
Hurt others. I rather kill myself before I hurt someone I love. I wish how I feel now that someone could just take my life. Its better than feeling so much pain. I know a quarter of how it feels now. Just a quarter. Keep stabbing me and make me bleed.. Feel it all… I deserve it… God help me:( :( :( :( :(
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